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Even when I walk in the valley of Darkness, I will fear no evil for
You are with me; Your rod and Your staff – they comfort me.
Do I go to die or to live? Do I go to die to love? There must be no
I was living in a bubble...what does that mean?
It means that even though I knew the truth- and unlike others- chose
not to escape from the truth...yet I was not living the truth. I had
the illusion of security. When the truth became too painful there
was always the brief escape- the reprieve. Yet all I really had to
do is face the truth and live it and live my life in a way that is
one with it. Security is for cowards. To not risk is to be dead.
I was in a dead relationship- the illusion of security- but there
was no meeting of minds. No joy of discovery. No love of what
is-never seen for who I was or who I imagine myself to be. Security?
You have got to be kidding- unless you consider death secure...and I
can assure you of one thing- it isn't.
I am about to do something
which is difficult for me. On the one hand I feel supported by those
today and in the past that act out of principle and are willing to
pay a price. On the other hand I feel so alone. I know this
aloneness is an illusion- yet I still feel alone. Or perhaps I
always was alone- and only felt the illusion of not being so.
Sometimes I wish I was still felt this illusion...most of the time I
am thankful that I do not. Or perhaps I want what cannot be- as the
song says-to love and to be loved in return. Or perhaps I already
have/had this...Confused I guess. Not easy to go on.
|It is amazing and beautiful how different and the same we all are and
how all pursuits are ultimately spiritual in nature- a search for self
discovery and enlightenment- a fuller understanding of our true
nature. An understanding that we are all God.
"...For I was an hungred and ye gave me no meat; I was
thirsty, and you gave me no drink:
I was a stranger, and ye took me not in: naked, and ye
clothed me not: sick, and in prison, and ye visited me not.
Then shall they also answer, saying, Lord, when saw we
thee an hungered, or athirst, or a stranger, or naked, or
sick, or in prison, and did not minister unto thee?
Then shall he answer them, saying, Verily I say unto you,
Inasmuch as ye did it not to one of the least of these, ye did
it not to me." (Matthew 25:43-45)
"The LORD said, "Go out and
stand on the mountain in the presence of the LORD, for the LORD
is about to pass by." Then a great and powerful wind tore the
mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the LORD, but the
LORD was not in the wind. After the wind there was an
earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake. After the
earthquake came a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire. And
after the fire came a gentle whisper."
"Beautiful New Worlds,"
Whether or not they know it, most of the world's religions and philosophies start
from the same point. Like spokes emanating from a wheel's hub, they converge upon
diverge from a common center. That center is God or universal truth, compassion and
wisdom. Learn from all religions, all philosophies and use only one test- is the
belief sincere, does it bear good fruit and does it seem right, is it in accord with what
is good and just. Men are more powerful in the universe than they can imagine. Walking in
common purpose and prayer they can transform their individual and collective lives in ways
most can barely imagine. "For where two or three are gathered together in my
name, there am I in the midst of them." (Matthew 18:20) and again, "If two of
you shall agree on earth as touching anything that they shall ask, it shall be done for
them of my Father which is in heaven." (Matthew 18:19).
All faith is ultimately personal. Faith, a belief in God, can be as natural and ever
present as the oxygen in the air we breath. All men can become instruments of the creator.
"Believest thou not that I am in the Father, and the Father in me? the words that
I speak unto you I speak not of myself: but the Father that dwelleth in me, he doeth the
works." (John 14:10). "Even the Spirit of Truth; whom the world cannot receive,
because it seeth him not, neither knoweth him: but ye shall know him; for he dwelleth with
you, and shall be in you." (John 14:17).
Release and abandon all pretension of wisdom, of pride, of belief in self,
world and its' possessions and allow God to take shape and form your life. He will tell
you what to say, will take you were you need to go and will help bring forth the innate
goodness in those around you. He will cause you to meet new friends, and yes, you may
uncover new enemies. "If thou wilt be perfect, go and sell that thou hast, and
give to the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come and follow me."
(Matthew 19:21). But life is ultimately a battle and though one should not
unnecessarily create enemies, sometimes enemies are needful to do good. "And
found in the temple those that sold oxen and sheep and doves, and the changers of money
sitting: And when he had made a scourge of small cords, he drove them all out of the
temple, and the sheep, and the oxen; and poured out the changers' money, and overthrew the
tables;..." (John 2:14-15).
Tolerance is a bare minimum and understood common ground that
all the world's peoples dare not forget. But tolerance is only the beginning step in
reconciliation and renewal. It must lead to love and community.
Men must learn to love each other on all levels- as individuals and as members of groups-
large and small. The good of the world cannot be done alone and apart. Our work should be a reflection of our love. We must seek the strength
and fellowship of other men and woman.
The enemy of this world is in fact Satan. Think of Satan as you will, perhaps as a being
or perhaps as an aspect of the human psyche. Satan seeks to isolate, to denigrate, to make
us forget our commonness and community. He seeks to turn our guilt in upon itself and
cause us to end our lives or the lives of others. He seeks to rob our lives of its meaning
and joy. He teaches us to limit our potential and makes us forget that the chief purpose
of life is to serve others and forgive. "And Jesus answered and said unto him,
Get thee behind me, Satan: for it is written, Thou shalt worship the Lord thy God, and him
only shalt thou serve." (Luke 4:8).
Without faith, without a love of God and universal wisdom, men turn their faces from the
truths that were made known to them as children. In children we find
simple faith- a closeness to God. This closeness is not put their by Sunday School. It
is not put their by their parents. It is placed there by God. "And said, Verily I
say unto you, Except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter
into the kingdom of heaven." (Matthew 18:3). "Whosoever shall receive one of
such children in my name, receiveth me: and whosoever shall receive me, receiveth not me,
but him that sent me." (Mark 9:37).
In this world, suffering is not punishment. Nor is
We are here to breathe the spirit of God and universal truth. To serve God and all
creation, ALL creation. Do no think the least of creatures on this Earth is not beloved of
God, for God is in all of his creations and all of his creations are in him. Minister unto
each other as Jesus ministered unto his disciples. As Jesus asked forgiveness for our
sins, ask forgiveness for your own sins and the sins of others. "For if ye
forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you: But if ye
forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses".
(Matthew 6:14-15). Understand that no race, no religion, no living creature is less
in the Father's eye. Find his love and manifest it to the world. "The first of
all commandments is thou shalt love your God with all your heart and with all your soul
and with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is this: Love your neighbor
as yourself." (Mark 12:30-31). "By this all men will know that you are My
disciples, if you have love for one another." (John 13:35).
It is recognized that different beliefs use different ways of naming God, universal truth,
wisdom, joy and compassion. Indeed, in many religions the words themselves are not thought
of as symbols but have a power and significance of their own. Still it is possible to use
different "names" to understand the same phenomena. God, the infinite, universal
truth and wisdom entails far too great, rich and expansive an understanding to exclusively
confine to the realm of one religion or to not see the universal as a series of infinite
potentialities, variegated and equally rich. Though the paths may be infinite in number,
that one must choose a path in life is clear to me. That it must be this one
or that one is not. Often those who reject another's path, make the least effort
to understand what his friend's beliefs actually mean- if indeed he is even really thought
of as a friend. Yet, to know ones' self and to free ones' self from
religious, political and personal symbols, ideas and beliefs that
cloud self-knowledge- perhaps this is the beginning of all
paths that seek truth and inner and outer transformation.
Jesus said, "If those who lead you say to you "See, the Kingdom is
in the sky," then the birds of the sky will precede you. If they say to you "It
is in the sea," then the fish will precede you. Rather, the Kingdom is inside of you
and it is outside of you. When you come to know yourselves then you will become known, and
you will realize that it is you who are the sons of the living Father. But if you will not
know yourselves you will dwell in poverty and it is you who are that poverty."-
Gospel of Thomas 3
"Truth is a pathless land."
Man cannot come to it through any organization, through any
creed, through any dogma, priest or ritual, not through any
philosophic knowledge or psychological technique. He has to find
it through the mirror of relationship, through the understanding
of the contents of his own mind, through observation and not
through intellectual analysis or introspective dissection. Man
has built in himself images as a fence of security -- religious,
political, personal. These manifest as symbols, ideas, beliefs.
The burden of these images dominates man's thinking, his
relationships and his daily life. These images are the causes of
our problems for they divide man from man. His perception of
life is shaped by the concepts already established in his mind.
The content of his consciousness is his entire existence. This
content is common to all humanity. The individuality is the
name, the form and superficial culture he acquires from
tradition and environment. The uniqueness of man does not lie in
the superficial but in complete freedom from the content of his
consciousness, which is common to all mankind. So he is not an
Freedom is not a reaction; freedom is not choice. It is man's
pretence that because he has choice, he is free. Freedom is pure
observation without direction, without fear of punishment and
reward. Freedom is without motive; freedom is not at the end of
the evolution of man but lies in the first step of his
existence. In observation one begins to discover the lack of
freedom. Freedom is found in the choiceless awareness of our
daily existence and activity.
Thought is time. Thought is born of experience and knowledge
which are inseparable from time and the past. Time is the
psychological enemy of man. Our action is based on knowledge and
therefore time, so man is always a slave to the past. Thought is
ever-limited and so we live in constant conflict and struggle.
There is no psychological evolution. When man becomes aware of
the movement of his own thoughts he will see the division
between the thinker and the thought, the observer and the
observed, the experiencer and the experience. He will discover
that this division is an illusion. Then only is there pure
observation which is insight without any shadow of the past or
of time. This timeless insight brings about a deep radical
mutation in the mind.
Total negation is the essence of the positive. When there is
negation of all those things that thought has brought about
psychologically, only then is there love, which is compassion
and intelligence. - J.
This is not to say there are not false paths. Paths that lead to the destruction of human
potential, that isolate, that engender hate and self loathing- these are indeed false
paths. Tragically, the most intolerant people I have encountered would label
themselves the most religious. Indeed, they deem their intolerance an
expression of God's will. What does this day about them? About their
religion? Their God?
The practice of religion should not be a cold, abstract intellectual
experience, but rather a personal one that touches the essence of one's being and
emotions. Finally, there is no "short cut" path to spiritual truth and
understanding. Though in some sense it is through Divine grace that we even exist, we must
with humility, joy, giving and an earnest desire for truth come to understand who we are
and our life's meaning.
The church is in each and every one of us.
Christ's mission was to teach us that our spiritual
disconnectedness with each other, with the Earth and all living
things- with the Universe as a whole- is unnecessary and brings
only additional suffering and pain. He elevated those who
suffer, not out of a sense of divine justice ("the meek shall
inherit the Earth"), but because he knew that those who suffer
are brought closer to God and better understand the
connectedness of all things. His essential message is that we
can all become Christ-like- teachers and seekers of truth-
experiencing the joy that He knew.
Man's greatest fear is a kind of existential terror- the fear of not being- of being
unable to control one's own life, one's thoughts, one's emotions, actions and future. The
ability to extend beyond ones self and find meaning in giving, a firm belief in God,
universal truths and/or the power of ones own humanity and the oneness of humanity- to
overcome the condition of isolation- is critical if this terror is to be manageable and
turned into a constructive life force- a force of cultural transcendence and self
realization. As Ernest Becker wrote:
Man breaks through the bounds of merely cultural heroism; he
destroys the character lie that had him perform as a hero in the everyday social scheme of
things; and by doing so he opens himself up to infinity, to the possibility of cosmic
heroism .... He links his secret inner self, his authentic talent, his deepest feelings of
uniqueness ... to the very ground of creation. Out of the ruins of the broken cultural
self there remains the mystery of the private, invisible, inner self which yearned for
ultimate significance. ...This invisible mystery at the heart of [the] creature now
attains cosmic significance by affirming its connection with the invisible mystery
at the heart of creation. - Becker's words were quoted from the article, "The
Denial of Death and the Practice of Dying," (or: "Tasting Death"), by Glenn
Reality is consciousness. Consciousness shapes, limits, defines
and creates reality. We never really see ourselves, let alone
another person apart from
how we perceive them. Their reality will be different from ours.
of our bodies, our lovers, our families, our communities, our
nation, our planet and our universe is shaped by our consciousness
and perception of them. Yet our values, our understanding of
community, our integrity, our desire for truth as individuals
shapes the collective reality- karma defines a collective
responsibility. Our conscious spheres intersect and interact to
shape a collective reality that defines our existence and can
determine it. If we destroy the Earth through individual and
collective decisions that fail to recognize the interconnectedness
of life and our understanding of truth- the Earth will physically
die- the Earth has a body and a consciousness like our own- she
can die. Families, communities and nations can also die- whether
their members continue to exist.
"For a Sufi, the diversity of names and forms of the world's religious tendencies are
like veils covering the phenomena of the Spirit of Guidance manifested at all levels of
evolution. This inner guidance is constantly present in the beautiful book of nature's
mysteries, which reveals a never-ending message of Love, providing one's understanding of
the relationship between matter and spirit is in harmony with one's feeling heart. This
explains why one of the great ideals of a Sufi is the awakening of the heart qualities,
resulting in a broader outlook. One's view then reaches far beyond concepts of faith and
belief, and allows one to offer tolerance to the tragic misunderstandings which divide the
earnest followers of various religious and philosophical traditions."
The Inner School - Sufi - Gathekas
"The true basis of religion is not belief
but intuitive experience. Intuition is the soul's power of
knowing God. To know what religion is really about, one must
"All original thinkers and investigators of the hidden side of
nature whether materialists -- those who find in matter "the promise and potency of
all terrestrial life," or spiritualists -- that is, those who discover in spirit the
source of all energy and of matter as well, were and are, properly Theosophists. For to be
one, one need not necessarily recognize the existence of any special God or a deity. One
need but worship the spirit of living nature and try to identify oneself with it. To
revere that Presence, the invisible Cause, which is yet ever manifesting itself in
its incessant results; the intangible, omnipotent, and omnipresent Proteus: indivisible in
its Essence, and eluding form, yet appearing under all and every form; who is here and
there and everywhere and nowhere; is ALL, and NOTHING: ubiquitous yet one; the Essence
filling, binding, bounding, containing everything, contained in all. It will, we think, be
seen now, that whether classed as Theist, Pantheists or Atheists, such men are all near
kinsmen to the rest. Be what he may, once that a student abandons the old trodden highway
of routine, and enters upon the solitary path of independent thought -- Godward -- he is a
Theosophist, an original thinker, a seeker after the eternal truth, with "an
inspiration of his own" to solve the universal problems."
Omnipresent Proteus," by H. P. Blavatsky
"I was standing on the highest mountain of them all,
and round about beneath me was the whole hoop of the world. And while I stood there I saw
more than I can tell and I understood more than I saw; for I was seeing in a sacred manner
the shapes of all things in the spirit, and the shape of all shapes as they must live
together like one being. And I saw that the sacred hoop of my people was one of many hoops
that made one circle, wide as daylight and as starlight, and in the center grew one mighty
flowering tree to shelter all children of one mother and one father. And I saw that it was
"You have noticed that everything an Indian does is in a circle,
and that is because the Power of the World always works in circles, and everything tries
to be round. In the old days when we were a strong and happy people, all our power came to
us from the sacred hoop of the nation, and so long as the hoop was unbroken, the people
flourished. The flowering tree was the living center of the hoop, and the circle of the
four quarters nourished it. The east gave peace and light, the south gave warmth, the west
gave rain, and the north with its cold and mighty wind gave strength and endurance. This
knowledge came to us from the outer world with our religion. Everything the Power of the
World does is done in a circle. The sky is round, and I have heard that the earth is round
like a ball, and so are all the stars. The wind, in its greatest power, whirls. Birds make
their nests in circles, for theirs is the same religion as ours. The sun comes forth and
goes down again in a circle. The moon does the same, and both are round. Even the seasons
form a great circle in their changing, and always come back again to where they were. The
life of a man is a circle from childhood to childhood, and so it is in everything where
power moves. Our teepees were round like the nests of birds, and these were always set in
a circle, the nations hoop, a nest of many nests, where the Great Spirit meant for
us to hatch our children."
"I cured with the power that came through me. Of course, it was not
I who cured, it was the power from the Outer World, the visions and the ceremonies had
only made me like a hole through which the power could come to the two-leggeds."
"If I thought that I was doing it myself, the hole would close up
and no power could come through. Then everything I could do would be foolish."
"A long time ago my father told me what his father had told him,
that there was once a Lakota holy man, called "Drinks Water", who dreamed what
was to be... He dreamed that the four-leggeds were going back to the Earth, and that a
strange race would weave a web all around the Lakotas. He said, "You shall live in
square gray houses, in a barren land..." Sometimes dreams are wiser than
See also: "Earth
Prayer" and "Black Elk:
Holy Man of the Oglala Sioux, 1863-1950"
The Religious Situation of Our Time
No peace among nations
Without peace among the religions
No peace among the religions
Without dialogue between the religions
No dialogue between the religions
Without investigation of the foundation of the religions
Believe as you will, but look for and accept the
Commonality that defines our interdependence.
Christianity - Essence, History, and Future, Hans Kung
"Again and again we come to recognize that the most
essential, joyful mystery of Christianity is the mystery of
the person, of what makes each human being valuable to God,
of what we can and must love in him or her. It is precisely
this mystery which the world and its ruling ideologies have
repudiated. To them, a human being is defined by externals:
class, race nationality, utilitarian value, what he or she
gives to the country or, on the contrary, their mistakes and
crimes. Our people vs. strangers, allies vs. enemies, us vs.
them... Yet it seems that everyone is talking about
liberation for human society, happiness for the world,
prescriptions for humanity, the struggle for a bright, happy
and liberated life. But in reality, all are united against
someone else and everything is motivated by fear, suspicion
and hatred. And it will be this way until people understand
that to love humanity in general, to serve humanity in
general, is not only a deception; it is also impossible if
this love is not rooted in love for the person, for each
person, a love which goes beyond any of our earthy, 'human,
all too human' standards and categories which we use to
classify and evaluate people."
The Mystery of Person
Alexander Schmemann, Celebration of Faith, Sermons Vol 2: The
All I Know
"This winter I drove eighteen hundred
miles to help a friend with aids. I saw him for fifteen
minutes upon arrival and again for less than one minute a
month later. I stayed two and a half months to be there for
him. I learned very many very precious things.
From the badgering by some friends which included that "I
should be angry that he was ignoring me"; and that "we
couldn't have communicated as I told them"; also that "he
was being a terrible person ignoring me and not inviting me
to stay at his house"; and that above all "I was and am a
bad judge of people because of this and other inappropriate
experiences I've had.
I learned first and foremost I make and own my choices.
There can be reactions and consequences to my actions which
I may not enjoy. I am not locked into my decisions.
Therefore quite relatively free to change my mind at any
time. I learned to recognize what belongs to me and what
doesn't in many situations. I cannot then construe being
done against when I see my truth.
When tempted towards negative thinking, which used to be my
learned habit, or adopting opinions that are clearly not
mine I learned to exercise short-circuiting the process and
hear myself say "I am not going there. I don't want to go
there" (anymore.) This reaction I reinforce by reminding
myself not to allow an opinion to formulate from speculation
-- no matter how clearly obvious the circumstances might
appear. I exercise an appropriate response based upon only
what is known for certain. I decide not to base anything on
appearances or negative impressions. There is liberating
peace and great pleasure in exercising this.
I was there because I chose to be- that was the only thing I
knew for certain.
Rarely are things as they appear, usually they are
infinitely much better! We just can't (yet) or won't
(always) see it --certainly not by habitually maintaining a
focused and tense point of view.
I learned again I do not live in anyone else's shoes -- or
head or body. Therefore it is not for me to act like I do.
Certainly not to believe or claim to know either where
someone else is; how they feel or what they are going
through. I can know virtually nothing about another person,
especially how they are affected by their traumas or their
enduring pain thresholds particularly emotional, psychic and
spiritual. I cannot always reasonably compare it with my
own. I learned I don't want to act like I do. I will develop
empathy and compassion but not such arrogance.
I learned not to judge. When confronted by a friends'
presentation concluding I am a terrible judge of people, I
said nothing. His case was full of convincing evidence. I
could not defend what I did not quite accept I was guilty
of, nor was I willing to take on feeling ashamed or place
blame. I didn't believe I have been so wronged by people.
(Indeed I have but that is something else.) Later, distanced
from that well-meaning attack I could see my flaw was in not
judging people. Therefore I can't be a good, bad or poor
judge of character. I am a good person and openly trust and
care so naturally I will be subject to some bad-appearing
experiences. I walk a fine line of responsibility and
accountability. Many experiences can be construed as against
me -- but I know better.
I learned to not inappropriately fault myself or others when
people do not do as they say or when they act out (their
stuff) with high drama. Life genuinely is better and more
peaceful. Socially accepted negative habits are tempting to
indulge but do not positively enhance life. Faulting, like
inappropriate shame and blame is a waste of energy. Being
right doesn't matter (--there is such a thing as being dead
Finally I learned about being somewhere for someone --
without expectations or personal agenda or the need to be
I thanked the friend I went to San
Francisco for for getting me there -- knowing I was there
for me, not just him. The awkwardness and challenges of
living out of a van those cold and wet winter months like
most pain faded with time. The treasure of so many precious
gifts remains with me and expands.
I met many magical people. I was gifted great-
Dan Martel, " ALL I Know."
He was despised and rejected by men,
a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering.
Like one from whom men hide their faces
he was despised, and we esteemed him not.
Surely he took up our infirmities
and carried our sorrows, yet we considered
him stricken by God, smitten by him, and afflicted.
But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment
that brought us peace was upon him,
and by his wounds we are healed.
Isaiah 52: 3-5 (NIV)
Because of this, God in his wisdom said, `I will send
them prophets and apostles, some of whom they will
kill and others they will persecute.'
Luke 11:49 (English-NIV)
Jesus saith unto him, Thomas, because thou hast seen me,
thou hast believed: blessed are they that have not seen,
and yet have believed.
John 20:29 (King James Version)
Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of
Blessed are the meek, for they shall possess the earth.
Blessed are they who mourn, for they shall be comforted.
Blessed are they who hunger and thirst for justice, for they
shall be satisfied.
Blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy.
Blessed are the clean of heart, for they shall see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called
children of God.
Blessed are they who suffer persecution for justice' sake,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are you when men reproach you, and persecute you,
and speaking falsely, say all manner of evil against you,
for My sake.
"Troublemakers: Since no
one really knows anything about God,
those who think they do are just troublemakers." -
8th century Sufi woman.
"The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell
you. Don't go back to sleep.
You must ask for what you really want. Don't go back to
People are going back and forth across the doorsill where
The door is round and open. Don't go back to
I am in this world, but not of this world. I came to you to come
to my Father. I am in the Father and
the Father is in me.
I am the son of the living God.
If you cannot experience pain- not the pain of a
frustrated ego, but the true pain that is within and without- then
you are bound inflict it on others. Understanding pain, you can
begin to heal- within and without...
You are awakened to a world that is not this world.
I must not let my sensitivity diminish my
I had a dream. I was in a play. I played the part
of an angel. Somewhere towards the middle/end, I forgot my
lines. I stayed backstage, fearful that I would hurt the
performance and my fellow actors. Finally, I went to the the
director and said- I forgot my lines. He replied- that doesn't
matter- just be who you are, be present- that is enough.
I was hiking with my dog today. There were many
joggers on the path. This disturbed me. I felt them trampling on
what I love- without understanding it- not sharing my love. I
was in pain and became angry. Finally I got off the main path.
There were fewer of them. At a certain point- it was just me and
my dog. The clouds were part of a mist that gave the impression
of a soft sea floating in the sky. The sun was emanating from
the trees- a brilliance- beyond words. The young trees were
silent and joyfully receiving the light. The mountain was
standing- watching. loving, wise- one with my heart. I was happy
and in tears. The joy of oneness- of being with who and what I
love. The moments passed, we took the return path. I was happy.
The pain was worth the joy.
In life, we often find that we
are least receiving of the love we need when we need it most-
friends, family- often prove false or inadequate- but sometimes,
if we are open, the universe brings us what we need- from the
most unexpected places. I am need this now.
Most men exist in a bubble of delusion- they can’t
travel with their minds- so they travel with their bodies- the
greatest journeys are within- not outside.
Everything is nothingness. There is only silence.
Everything is one.
A prisoner in my own self made prison.
is the Earth, my father the Sun. I am a protector of life & a teacher.
Yet my strength is found in the gentlest & humblest. In the plants,
animals & mountains & their sacred wisdom- in the
butterfly, so deeply connected with the soul's transformation- in
the loving eyes of a stray dog- in the light in a friend's eyes- in all things
"I am the mountain, I am the
trees, I am the river, I am the ocean, I am the smallest insect
and the tallest giraffe- I am all things- I have created all
things. All creation in the universe is inseparable from me. The
ocean is my blood, the trees my lungs. When one part of creation
is in pain, I feel this pain. Creation is my child and I am a
child of creation. I am light and all is light. I am darkness and
all is darkness."
"To heal one must understand and experience the
oneness of all creation- sense the pain of human beings
individually and collectively, understand the meaning of
separation and focus on the beautiful essence of all souls and
creation. The energy to heal comes from the great universe- a vast
sea of spirits, ancestors, light- this energy can be channeled,
focused and then used to encircle the planet- the universe- in a
Fire encased in light.
If we think we are everything than we are nothing.
If we think we are nothing- yet part of everything- we are
In death we become one with all consciousness-
experiencing complete joy, peace and beauty. Pain is an illusion-
there is only love.
I think the key is to understand and feel the suffering of all
beings, including one’s own- and then to further recognize that
the part of us that suffers is not our true selves. To
understand our true self is in part to understand what I just
wrote and then to experience it. The true self is in deep
connection with everything- experiences boundless love and has
compassion for all suffering beings….
None of this is to deny the reality of suffering-
only to understand what it is. Nor does this realization in any
way diminish one’s responsibility to work for the truth- in both
words and actions. The reality of most beings is a kind of
unreality- a chain of karmic suffering that spans lifetimes.
I must have faith that this existence is all part
of the universal unfolding and greater purpose.
"I have many visions- I can feel, sense those that
have passed over. I can sense thoughts from anywhere- I can in
some sense be at many places at once. I can return to places I
have been thousands of years ago- I can numb myself to stop the
pain. I was burned at the stake long ago. I can instantly forget
and instantly remember. I can hold on to and let go in an instant.
I am the light on the water- the ocean as it reaches the shore,
the in between- what is and isn't. What I see is beyond words.
Words never really say anything. Everything is silence."
"I feel overwhelmed by the
insensitivity of others - how they simply project their needs and
wants upon the world- how so much in relationships is merely an
expression of ego. I find solace and peace in nature- among the
non-human spirits that I feel deep connectedness to. But for my
fellow humans- I am feeling confusion- they sadden me. They seem
like walking automatons- even those who are supposedly awake. I
feel awake in a world of sleeping people and I can't help but feel
lonely- there is almost a sense of terror- as if waking up and
surrounded by a room full of ghosts- or am I the ghost. Have I
died? Yes I have died- but not yet fully reborn. I need help-
but who will heal the healer?"
"Though words are inadequate- there
is a distinction between pain and suffering. The experience of
pain does not necessarily lead to suffering. Much of the pain I
have been feeling- of late is not completely tied to a false sense
of self- but rather to a sensitivity to what is. I believe that
this sensitivity is important to a spiritual path- to love."
"To understand and experience those
aspects of self that are not ego, one must go within and without.
One can only experience self when one experiences non-self."
"Even as we oppose what is clearly wrong, we
must gaze on the beautiful aspects of the human soul- teaching by
example- words and actions- recognizing our own imperfection and
the perfection of our soul. There is always hope."
"Part of the spiritual path is the
acceptance of death. Yes, one recognizes the continuity of spirit
and that death is in some sense moving from one plane to the next-
a kind of shift in consciousness. Life itself is an illusion and
all is but dreamed and the dreaming worlds more real than the
physical- though the two subtly merge. I do not believe that this
is my time to die. Yet I must learn to accept its inevitability
and truth- or any spiritual pursuit will be less than full, if not
quite empty. I don't believe there is any other way to progress
"There are many things I sense, but
chose not to acknowledge into full consciousness- those that have
passed over, my being in these many places- many other things. I
can bring myself to a fuller consciousness- but I don't have to.
Mostly I am content to sense- to know through what you would call
intuition. Yet if I wish I can focus my awareness and talk, see
and feel spirit. Everything is spirit and light. I can see things
this way. I can talk to trees- hold conversations, talk to
mountains, talk to those that have passed over. I can experience
consciousness anywhere in the universe. I can ask questions- I can
flow in and out of minds. I can open myself up as much as I chose
and also limit my communication. Much of what I am told is attuned
to my level of awareness, temperament and spiritual understanding.
Everything comes back to this spiritual understanding. I
experienced many things at Teo- merging, messages of love and
understanding, memories, great truth. It is not Teo, it is not me-
it is Teo, me, you and all the spirit that infuses what is sacred-
and all is sacred. All is beautiful."
"This technological age will end.
It will end after a great destruction brought about from war. In
time the earth and life will recover. The earth is a seed. Life
will spring forth again. Mankind will reemerge. Today, in this
Dark Age, many are planting the seeds for this new age. We are
teaching about connectedness- spiritual technology- oneness with
creation. We are thinking of ways to transmit knowledge so that
each generation does not forget the lessons of the last. We are
teaching about the dangers of technology. Mankind will renounce
the technology that brought about his near destruction. One day
man will live again in balance with the universe- consciously.
Thousands of years from now, the great destruction may become a
myth in men's minds. However, the seeds have been planted and the
lessons finally learned and there will be no further human caused
destruction. All things will be in balance."
"Warriors of the Rainbow"
"There was an old lady, from the
"Cree" tribe, named "Eyes of Fire", who prophesied that one day,
because of the white mans' or Yo-ne-gis' greed, there would come a
time, when the fish would die in the streams, the birds would fall
from the air, the waters would be blackened, and the trees would
no longer be, mankind as we would know it would all but cease to
There would come a time when the "keepers of the legend, stories,
culture rituals, and myths, and all the Ancient Tribal Customs"
would be needed to restore us to health. They would be mankinds’
key to survival, they were the "Warriors of the Rainbow". There
would come a day of awakening when all the peoples of all the
tribes would form a New World of Justice, Peace, Freedom and
recognition of the Great Spirit.
The "Warriors of the Rainbow" would spread these messages and
teach all peoples of the Earth or "Elohi". They would teach them
how to live the "Way of the Great Spirit". They would tell them of
how the world today has turned away from the Great Spirit and that
is why our Earth is "Sick".
The "Warriors of the Rainbow" would show the peoples that this
"Ancient Being" (the Great Spirit), is full of love and
understanding, and teach them how to make the "Earth or Elohi"
beautiful again. These Warriors would give the people principles
or rules to follow to make their path right with the world. These
principles would be those of the Ancient Tribes. The Warriors of
the Rainbow would teach the people of the ancient practices of
Unity, Love and Understanding. They would teach of Harmony among
people in all four comers of the Earth.
Like the Ancient Tribes, they would teach the peoples how to pray
to the Great Spirit with love that flows like the beautiful
mountain stream, and flows along the path to the ocean of life.
Once again, they would be able to feel joy in solitude and in
councils. They would be free of petty jealousies and love all
mankind as their brothers, regardless of color, race or religion.
They would feel happiness enter their hearts, and become as one
with the entire human race. Their hearts would be pure and radiate
warmth, understanding and respect for all mankind, Nature, and the
Great Spirit. They would once again fill their minds, hearts,
souls, and deeds with the purest of thoughts. They would seek the
beauty of the Master of Life - the Great Spirit! They would find
strength and beauty in prayer and the solitudes of life.
Their children would once again be able to run free and enjoy the
treasures of Nature and Mother Earth. Free from the fears of
toxins and destruction, wrought by the Yo-ne-gi and his practices
of greed. The rivers would again run clear, the forests be
abundant and beautiful, the animals and birds would be
replenished. The powers of the plants and animals would again be
respected and conservation of all that is beautiful would become a
way of life.
The poor, sick and needy would be cared for by their brothers and
sisters of the Earth. These practices would again become a part of
their daily lives.
The leaders of the people would be chosen in the old way - not by
their political party, or who could speak the loudest, boast the
most, or by name calling or mud slinging, but by those whose
actions spoke the loudest. Those who demonstrated their love,
wisdom, and courage and those who showed that they could and did
work for the good of all, would be chosen as the leaders or
Chiefs. They would be chosen by their "quality" and not the amount
of money they had obtained. Like the thoughtful and devoted
"Ancient Chiefs", they would understand the people with love, and
see that their young were educated with the love and wisdom of
their surroundings. They would show them that miracles can be
accomplished to heal this world of its ills, and restore it to
health and beauty.
The tasks of these "Warriors of the Rainbow" are many and great.
There will be terrifying mountains of ignorance to conquer and
they shall find prejudice and hatred. They must be dedicated,
unwavering in their strength, and strong of heart. They will find
willing hearts and minds that will follow them on this road of
returning "Mother Earth" to beauty and plenty - once more.
The day will come, it is not far away. The day that we shall see
how we owe our very existence to the people of all tribes that
have maintained their culture and heritage. Those that have kept
the rituals, stories, legends, and myths alive. It will be with
this knowledge, the knowledge that they have preserved, that we
shall once again return to "harmony" with Nature, Mother Earth,
and mankind. It will be with this knowledge that we shall find our
"Key to our Survival".
This is the story of the "Warriors of the Rainbow" and this is my
reason for protecting the culture, heritage, and knowledge of my
ancestors. I know that the day "Eyes of Fire" spoke of - will
come! I want my children and grandchildren to be prepared to
accept this task. The task of being one of the........"Warriors of
From the Trees...To the Trees
" We love you. We have waited for
you for thousands, millions of years. Whatever the price- it is
worth that moment when we experience your beauty- your love. You
are our father- our creator. Your love for us, our love for you
you- cannot be concealed- cannot be diminished by all of the
words and lies of men. We created you and you created us. All
the pain is worth that moment of joy."
"My love for you is great. Who you
are is eternal and can never be erased. It shines upon the very
heavens and is emblazoned upon the book of life. You are my
children. My works- the works of men- give me great pain. I see
the self destructiveness. What sustains me is your love. The
hope is that the experience of love will overcome the rest- and
thereby our joy multiplied a thousand fold."
It has been many years since you
crossed over. Every moment I feel you with me. There are no
words to describe how much I love you- the very thought of you
brings tears to my eyes- tears of joy for what we had- and
sadness for what is no more- at least on this plane. If I should
die tomorrow- then I will know one thing- I was loved and
accepted and understood- and I knew true love.