I am at the center of the Universe. I am
where all creation comes
into being and dissolves. At the edge of existence and non-existence.
It is dark- yet suffused with the creationís light. I feel incredible pain-
I feel the motherís pain as she gives birth. Immersed in pain I begin to
heal. Pain is transmuted- as water to wine or wine to water.
Judgment gives way to acceptance and compassion. Fully Abandoning what
is false I can now embrace the true. Finally I can fully manifest who I am.
In the darkest night there is light. In the abandonment of hope,
there is hope. There is no pain to great and love to small.
I am at the dark night of the
soul- yet I have not rejected- I walk between worlds- living in both light and
darkness. The transmuting of pain is my birthing into a new life.
"It is difficult to truly
understand someone else's pain- physical or psychic. It is
important to be non-judgmental, even when that pain becomes
a source of your own pain. It is always a delicate balance
between wanting to help and respecting another's desires and
needs. Perhaps all that matters is that we are sensitive to
this and do our best. Not every problem has a solution and
some things take time to heal."
know if I will ever be able to walk again- as I once did. I
must focus on each moment- one second, one hour, one day at
a time. We only live in the moment. There is no yesterday or
tomorrow. I wish someone would hug me, hold me, help me to
forget the pain and fear. Help me to not forget the
mother- I pray to you that I may again hear without
impediment, that I may experience the silence and the beauty
therein. I write this from my innermost being and with all
my love. So many suffer and go on. The human condition
requires- demands-begs for compassion. Help me- help us to
show compassion for ourselves- for each other. You are the
light of which we are all part- we come from you, live
in you and return to you. I came because I love the light"
My body is like a
surprise machine- an electrical storm- never knowing when
the next twitch- the next pain moving quickly through the
bodyís ether- here and gone. I seek relief from the storm-
and understanding of its cause and protection- a peace. Yet
I have a fear- where is the next rain- the next thunder the
the spiritual path is the acceptance of death. Yes, one
recognizes the continuity of spirit and that death is in
some sense moving from one plane to the next- a kind of
shift in consciousness. Life itself is an illusion and all
is but dreamed and the dreaming worlds more real than the
physical- though the two subtly merge. I do not believe that
this is my time to die. Yet I must learn to accept its
inevitability and truth- or any spiritual pursuit will be
less than full, if not quite empty. I don't believe there is
any other way to progress spiritually."
"Suffering it seems is the ultimate expression of duality
and false understanding. Saying this is not to belittle the
condition of those who suffer- which of course includes you
and I. However, my understanding and experience of non-self
seems to teach me that stripped of the karmic attachments
and accoutrements of this existence- we are left with a
Buddha nature that is one with everything, exists in perfect
awareness and bliss- with an infinite understanding of love.
In the end that is all there is. There is nothing else.
Words cannot describe this. It is not joy- nor the opposite.
It is just what is.
Compassion is helping
extend this awareness to others- an awareness of their true
nature and oneness.
Isnít it an amazing
and freeing realization that all that we think of as
ourselves- our identity- our emotions, thoughts, feelings,
etc. are not in any way who we are. Meditation teaches this
in a very basic way- here we see how fleeting and ephemeral
our thoughts are- how then can these thoughts define who we
are?- they are the very embodiment of impermanence."
"To overcome life and death is to know the
greatest of mastery." Yagyu Munenori
"Be true to the thought of the moment and
avoid distraction. Other than continuing to exert yourself,
enter into nothing else, but go to the extent of living single
thought by single thought." Yamamoto Tsunetomo
"Keep walking, though there's no place to
Don't try to see through the distances. That's not for human
beings. Move within, but don't move the way fear makes you
move. Walk to the well. Turn as the earth and moon turn, circling what they
translated by Coleman Barks from "The
"You showed me how, how to leave myself behind. How to turn
down the noise in my mind. Now I haven't got time for the pain-
I haven't got room for the pain- I haven't the need for the
pain. Not since I've known you. ...Sufferin' was the only thing made me
feel I was alive. Thought that's just how much it cost to
survive in this world- 'Til you showed me how, how to fill my
heart with love. How to open up and drink in all that white
light Pourin' down from the heaven. "Haven't
Got Time For the Pain," Words
and music by Carly Simon and Jacob Brackman.
"It costs so much to be a full human
being that there are very few who have the enlightenment or
the courage to pay the price... One has to abandon
altogether the search for security, and reach out to the
risk of living with both arms. One has to embrace the world
like a lover. One has to accept pain as a condition of
existence. One has to count doubt and darkness as the cost
of knowing. One needs a will stubborn in conflict, but apt
always to total acceptance of every consequence of living
Morris L. West, The Shoes Of The Fisherman
"We can never know the depth of anotherís
pain, only be there to listen, to hold, to say how it is
with us. When we lose a child to death, the pain never goes
away, we simply learn, through practice, how to live in
spite of it, or through it, partly by coming together with
others who grieve, and partly by expressing our need for
hugs and surrounding us with friends who never, ever back
Charlene Baldridge, To ache and to bloom
"Tolerance for pain may be high, but it
is not without limit. Eventually everyone begins to
recognize, however dimly, that there must be a better way.
As this recognition becomes firmly established, it becomes a
turning point." A
Course in Miracles